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If I had to pick a super human power, it would be to become invisible. Yea, that’d be nice. I would definitely love to use that power right about now.
Sick of fb. Rather, I’m sick of some of the people on it.
Debating if I should deactivate my account.
Budgeting
I had the time of my life going on my recent mini vacays to Coachella, Temecula, Vegas, and SF. And now, I’m literally paying for it.
I will be on broke ass bitch status for a while with the exception of the Palm Dessert trip I have planned with my mom in the middle of June. It’s a belated Mother’s Day gift.
Damn. I’m broke but it was all worth it.
Next trip: Hawaii!!
When: I don’t know. Lol.
I want to turn back the clock to this past weekend in Vegas. Take me back to when I enjoyed the sun, music, laughter, food, drinks and a pretty cool date to share it all with.
In this picture, I’m at the Marquee pool listening to DJ Chuckie and waiting for my ice cold Corona. Cheers!
You feel me?!
Ever have one of those days when you’re too busy to be annoyed and you try your very best to stay focused at work but you can’t because in the back of your head you’re still annoyed??
Yea. Me too. Right now.
Update:
The day has long passed, work is over, and now I’m in bed. What I’ve come to understand is that I was mostly annoyed with myself because I couldn’t begin to make sense of what it was that bothered me. And now, I know.
Use Your Words
I used to think that I was really good, no, great, at expressing myself. I thought that my communication skills were better than average. Well, the last 5 months have taught me a few things and one of them is that I’m horrible at telling someone how I really feel.
I learned that I take a while to process my feelings and then take a little while longer in verbalizing them. I used to make fun of my friend who would get so frustrated that she’d practically be throwing a tantrum instead of talking about her feelings. I’d have to tell her, “Use your words” in a semi-joking manner because, after all, we only say that to kids who have difficulty stating their feelings. Well, surprise, surprise! I’m one of those people!
I don’t know if it has to do with maturity, experience, practice or feeling a sense of security and comfort but I do know that talking about my feelings is challenging for me. I guess it depends on the situation, who I’m needing to talk to, or the subject itself, but man… unveiling my true emotions is tough.
When it comes down to it, there are so many variables that need to be considered in communicating but I would like to think that it simply came down to … talking. If only it were that easy.
Well, I think I just need to give myself some time to figure out what it is that is confusing me before I try to even attempt talking to someone about the things that are confusing me (har har). Although, it would really be nice if that person could help me by initiating that conversation because the God honest truth is that, at times, I’m timid. This is one of those times.
Sigh… Please don’t judge me. You have your “challenges” and I have mine.
"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars."
— Khalil Gibran
Expenses
Admittedly, I’ve been having the time of my life eating, partying, drinking, traveling, and buying stuff I don’t need.
I’m cutting corners where I can but hey now, guess who just scheduled to go to Vegas on May 18 to celebrate Calvin’s graduation? Yep! Moi! Then, I’m off to SF for Heather’s graduation the weekend after! Sorry guys, but my present will be my presence. :X
If I weren’t a social worker, trust, you’d get some bomb gifts but that’s just too bad. Here is where I laugh and cry at the same time. Heuuuu…
